daddy

all i ever wanted was just a hug, a smile, and some love, dad.

now i'm crying over something i never had.

i know you are a good man, but why did you forget about me, then?

damn.

do you think, it's easy to go out on the street all alone?

do you think i wouldn't like some warm words or your smile?

do you think it's easy to live with a man who hates you?

do you think i never loved you?

well i did and i still do.

but i never get anything back from you.

you can take your money back. i don't fucking need it. 

i only need you to make it up for all these years.
you've always said it was my mom's fault, but you don't even know her.
it was your fault.
you had a potential, but you throw it away for a bottle of vodka and some little whores at your work.
but that was ages ago. I forgive you now.
dad, i love you. i love you!

can you come back and hold me again with your firm grip in the water as you did then i was little then you were trying to teach me how to swim?

can you be a daddy i never had, because i love you, and you don't even know it.