mechanical butterflies

how are two people suppose to meet?

how do you know if they're meant to be together?

well you probably just say, "well you just know then you meet the right person".

but I don't know. I'm not sure how I feel.

it seems that then you meet that person, you just know that he's the one.

but I don't believe in that feeling.

I'm afraid for my heart to be broken.

I'm afraid to love someone, just because I don't want to be hurt.

I know those are stupid excuses.

and my heart gets broken either if I let someone in, or not. 

but then I'm alone I can at least pretend that everything's fine, and that I'm strong, and independent. 

I know that I'm not. I'm weak.

I need someone's shoulder to cry on. I need someone to care about. I need someone to make tea to. I need that hug, then you feel like your life is going nowhere. 

but I'm too scared to admit that I could ever love someone.