don't worry be happy

this lovely pancake told me that there's no place for sadness in this world 

so i must believe it, and just go on with my life and be happy!

p.s. sorry Mr. Pancake that I ate you, but you were just so yummy and irresistible!

i've been thinking

" just so you know,

i've been thinking a lot,

about who we could have been

if i was back home,

just chilling with you and all my friends,

but dear i'm gone; and that's the lousy truth"

.Christofer Drew.

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i should go to bed now.

i'm still sad, though.

tomorrow, i'm gonna try my best to be positive, and happy.

it shouldn't be really hard cuz i'm gonna hang out with my friends.

so i'm gonna try to forget my stupid little thoughts.

truth and nothing more

i promise that everything i do and say is true,

but sometimes i get too weak and all i want to do is cry,

because sometimes all i want it's just someone to love, someone to care for.

and yeah i ramble all the time just cos i have no idea how to express myself trough words.

bonfire + marshmallows

i just came back from this bonfire thing,

and i just wanted to say that bonfire plus marshmallows are fucking legit.

that's all, ha.

not caring

i should stop torturing myself, or not.

all i want to do is stay in bed the whole day, and just waste my fucking time.

i don't even care anymore.

i want to get high, and fly far away from this messed up society.

then my heart stops beating

"maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much and never will I have to answer again to anyone. Please don't get me wrong because I'll never let this go, but I can't find the words to tell you, I don't want to be alone, but now I feel like I don't know you"

paramore

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I'm a sad little kid right now. I hate loosing people.

this was how girls left

" I watched her for a long time, memorizing her shoulders, her long-legged gait. This was how girls left. They packed their suitcases and walked away in high heels. They pretended they weren't crying, that it wasn't the worst day of their lives. That they didn't want their mothers to come running after them, begging their forgiveness, that they wouldn't have gone down on their knees and thanked God if they could stay."

 excerpt from White Oleander by Janet Fitch  

trouble trouble

everyone knows rules, but only the fool will follow them.

freedom

"Freedom is not worth having if does not include the freedom to make mistakes"

Mahatma Gandhi 

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I'm not sure if I am doing the right thing right now, but I'm positive that I won't regret anything.

I don't want to hurt the person, but I am not going to be desperate.

I'm gonna live my life.

music

I want to write a song.

I have a lot of ideas and thoughts.

But how do I put them together?

And I need to learn to play a guitar.

It doesn't matter that my guitar has only four strings, and I have no idea where to even begin from, but this is going to be my next year's resolution.

LEARN TO PLAY A GUITAR [!!!]

I just want to know how to play it, because I think it's a great relaxation.

You know, then you feel that everything is falling, you just take your guitar, and go play in the street, and then you just spread love, joy, peace, and all that good stuff to everybody.

the stars

everyone in this world is a star.

everyone shines in a different way.

the way that only they can understand.

the brightness in my head

I had a pretty crappy day, but I've been practicing to be positive about my life. So I'm gonna tell you some of my thoughts that were swirling in my head the whole day.

So here it goes. 

You know, how you hear all of these people talking about life. It seems like they know shit.

But they don't.

They make it so complicated.

Then actually everything is simple.

The life is beautiful, but of course shit happens.

You can do whatever you want to do, because every moment you are dying, so why shouldn't you have some fun.

And nobody should ever forget that to be selfless is pretty cool too.

peace out. LET's PARTEEEE! 

mechanical butterflies

how are two people suppose to meet?

how do you know if they're meant to be together?

well you probably just say, "well you just know then you meet the right person".

but I don't know. I'm not sure how I feel.

it seems that then you meet that person, you just know that he's the one.

but I don't believe in that feeling.

I'm afraid for my heart to be broken.

I'm afraid to love someone, just because I don't want to be hurt.

I know those are stupid excuses.

and my heart gets broken either if I let someone in, or not. 

but then I'm alone I can at least pretend that everything's fine, and that I'm strong, and independent. 

I know that I'm not. I'm weak.

I need someone's shoulder to cry on. I need someone to care about. I need someone to make tea to. I need that hug, then you feel like your life is going nowhere. 

but I'm too scared to admit that I could ever love someone. 

Coffee and cigarettes are a good match, but for me it's only valuable if shared with you.

Though, I stand here alone, I still believe in my dreams. 

One day everything's gonna change; you'll have what you need, and I'll be standing there, right beside you. 

Although, as a wise man once said, "there's no past, nor future, only today..." but I still hope for a brighter tomorrow.

My hope will die the last.

.peace.