4 dienos iki vasaros pabaigos

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Jau tris dienas is eiles pas mus karsta. Ziauriai karsta. Vasara rodo ragus, atrodo, kad ji dar nesiruosia niekur eiti. As mirstu, kur mano ruduo? Nemegstu Kalifornijos. Ech, bet kaip nors isgyvensiu, ne tiek dar isgyvenau.I mokykla nesinori, bet tikiuosi, kad sie mokslo metai bus daugiau zadantis. O kitos vasaros atostogos bus tobulos. As tai zinau, bet stengiuos perdaug apie tai negalvoti, nes dar ilgai laukti.Man dabar gera ismokau neliudinti saves, del nesekmiu ar levo ir nejudancio gyvenimo. Tai vat ir sugalvojau nauja moto ar kazka tokio "Life is beautiful, but shit happens", manau jis man yra labai optimalus.

xoxo.

Truputi galva skauda.

Just the ohter stupid and super boring day.

Kai as noriu sokti, niekados nesoku. Kai as noriu gerti, niekados negeriu. Kai as noriu dainuoti, niekados nedainuoju. Kai as noriu sypsotis, niekados nesisypsau. Kai as noriu piesti, niekados nepiesiu. Kai as noriu pasivaikscioti, niekados nepasivaikscioju. Kai as noriu myleti, niekados nemyliu. Kada as noriu skaityti, niekados neskaitau. Kai as noriu juoktis, niekados nesijuokiu. Kai as noriu pirkti, niekados neperku. Kai as noriu klausytis muzikos, visada klausausi.
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NeverShoutNever - First Dance
It started with your hips,
So I moved up to your lips.
To take a chance,
Ask for a dance.
Cause you're the, cutest thing on this side of the world.
We call our homes,
Yet I feel so all alone.
Half of the time,
We gotta live with what we got,
And I got nothing.
So agree to take my hand,
So we can conjour up with something rad.

If you, could, move on with your life,
Just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright,
And I want you too.
Because ever since the first dance all I thought about,
Was loving on you.

So I moved to the dance floor,
With instincts and nothing more.
I had ants in my pants,
I did the boogie dance,
And there was nothing to do but laugh.
So I made another leap,
Hoping to sweep you off your feet,
I said,
"Baby maybe we could bust this joint and see if my place is open to chill."

If you, could, move on with your life, just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright, and I want you too.
Because ever since the first dance all I thought about,
Was loving on you.

I want to have my own story, my own way...

Mmm.
Tylu.
Tuscia.
Lasas vandens.
Ji guli susirietus i rutuli, ant lovos. Jos vidus tuscias, ji to nejaucia. Jos mintys toli, labai toli nuo cia - kambario kvepancio pelesiais ir sudziuvusiom gelem. Ji galvoja apie zmogu, jai nerupi is kur jis atejo, kokia jo paskirtis cia. Jai svarbesni kiti dalykai, tik ji negali suprasti kokie. Ji pasiklydus. Ji nenori, kad zmogus ja paliktu. Ji apsivercia ant kito sono ir zvilgteli i tuscia patala. Zmogus dinges. Ji nusisypso - zmogaus niekada, nebuvo.
"Kid, you've got your whole life"
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Ooh Standing by a broken tree Her hands are all twisted, She's pointing at me, I was damned by the light comin' Over all as she Spoke with a voice that, disrupted the sky. She said, "Walk on over, yeah to this bit of shade, I will wrap you in my arms" And hold you safe, "Let me sign, let me sign."

Lyrics by Robert Pattison - Let Me Sign

Go listen to: Florence And The Machine - Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) (The Lionheart Mix)

"Ar kadanors atsigulei vakare i lova ir nuo simta penkiolikos triju minciu ir nerealiausiu ideju tiesiog negalejai uzmigti ir galvojai, kaip ryt ryte atsikelsi ir jas visas igyvendinsi? Ir ar atsikeles kita ryt supranti, kad tos simta penkiolika trys mintys, buvo tokios kvailos ir tu nepajudinsi nei vieno pirsto, kad jas igyvendintum? Tu tiesiog sugrisi i savo rutina ir nekesi/megausies ja?"
Taip, taip ir dar karta taip!
Nes as esu keistas zmogus as bijau pati saves, as net nesu tikra kas as esu ar kokia mano paskirtis sitam dideliam pasauly. Bet as nesijaudinu, stengiuosi i viska ziureti pozityviai, tik kartais pritrunka stiprybes, nes kai viskas krenta is ranku ir nera peties issiverkt... Tiesiog buna sunku, bet taip as auginuosi vis stipresni skyda. Bet ar man reikia jo? Gal as tiesiog perdaug nuo visko saugausi, gal bijau... O kartais as tiesiog noriu buti kuo nesu, tada as nemegstu saves labiausiai.