new never shout never baby came out

mail man was good today.

I'm trying to keep the positive attitude

It's raining, so let's make a painting.

And later lets make some soup in the little group.

Then lets dance around like the clowns.

And maybe later take a nap or should we clap?

Either way just lets have fun, then we run

In the puddles and we'll look like the muddles.

So come on ask your mum,

And here we go and don't be slow!

dienos slenka laimes nenesdamos

3 dienos is eiles susiktos, apverktos. ir man tenka sypsotis, visada sypsotis. o viskas viduj verda is pykcio, liudesio, vientaves. dabar verkiu del nieko. kas man pasidare? as juk visada stipri. o gyvenimas bega, bet mane pamirses. pas mane viskas ramu, bet ne malonu. nera jokio zmogaus kas paguostu, vieninteli zmogu kuri cia turiu kuris mane myli pastaruoju metu nieko nedaro kaip tik rekia ant manes. ir tu galvoji, kad viskas bus gerai. nebus. dabar turi buti gerai, bet mano smegenys negali panesti kaip gali buti gerai kai viskas yra ziauriai sudinai. man blogai ziauriai blogai.

"I live for glitter, not you."

this is stuff that it is on my mind, this song just makes me love my life. yay!

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from?
No giving up when you're young and you want some

Running around again
Running for running

Waking up
In the midday sun
What's to live for?
You could see what I've done
Staring at emotion
In the light of day
I was running
From the things that you'd say

We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.
We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from?
No giving up when you're young and you want some

Running around again
Running for running
Running around again
Running for running

I was a boy
At an open door
Why you staring
Do you still think that you know?
Looking for treasure
In the things that you threw
Like a magpie
I live for glitter, not you

We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.
We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from
No giving up when you're young and you want some

Now I'm sitting alone
I'm finally looking around
Left here on my own
I'm gonna hurt myself
Maybe losing my mind
I'm still wondering why
Had to let the world let it bleed dry

We are not what you think we are
We are not what you think we are
We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from
No giving up when you're young and you want some

Running around again
Running for running
Running around again
Running for running

We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.

youth is on it. everybody is

youth - a messed up society. they ask questions "who am I?", " do I suck?", "is it bad to be a virgin?", "should I try pot?", "fuck, do I look fat?", "so are we serous?", "is he/she going to ask me out?", "why do my parents have to get a divorce?", "does this shirt look cool?", "Am I a fuck-up?", "does this life suck or that's just me?" etc. shit. they know too much. they do wrong stuff. they can kill a person. they care about useless things. they wanna fuck, but not to reproduce. they feel they are grown ups. they have the power of energy. they are young, they are kids. They think their responsibilities are equal to zero. Sometimes they will do something good to you, but most of the times they just want to get something from you, eye for eye, ok a cigarette will do. They are lost, and just a few of them have a support, and just a few of them will get out of this mess, the others will grown old will have kids who won't give a shit about them, probably they will live in some God's forgotten city and they will work for a shit load of hours, but won't get a good money. so will you be the lucky one or the fuck-up who will ask "God, why me?".

ar galiu pasakyti, kad gyvenu?

Nenoriu kalbeti apie gyvenima, nenoriu kalbeti apie sunkumus, jausmus, kvailystes. Noriu netureti nepagristu baimiu ar nepasitenkinti savimi. Nors zmones manes neskaudina, man sunku save suprasti, myleti... Dabar jauciuosi apgailetinai. As mokausi...mokiausi. Dabar as galiu prasedeti visa diena nieko neveikdama ir poto apie astunta valanda pradeti daryti namu darbus, nueiti miegot vienuolikta, keltis sesta, buti pavargus ir viskas is naujo. Bet as nesiskundziu, man gerai kaip yra, nes siandien as gal netgi istikruju juokiausi. As dziaugiuosi, kad gyvenime atsirado nauja drauge Gulsah. Ji yra idomus zmogus, daug apie ja dar negaliu pasakyti, bet man smagu leisti laika su ja. Tikiuosi, kad kiekvienas mano zengtas zignsis siame gyvenime veda prie konors gero.

Dabar noreciau atsigulti ir paiilseti, bet rytoj penktadienis ir as zinau, kad as galiu istverti dar viena diena. Tad eisiu issunksiu paskutini lasas is saves, padarysiu namu darbus ir eisiu septyniu, sesiu valandu miegui.

It's a piece of my life

" I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges, I see my father strolling out under the ochre sandstone arch, the red tiles glinting like bent plates of blood behind his head, I see my mother with a few light books at her hip standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks with the wrought-iron gate still open behind her, its sword-tips black in the May air, they are about to graduate, they are about to get married, they are kids, they are dumb, all they know is they are innocent, they would never hurt anybody. I want to go up to them and say 'Stop don't do it--she's the wrong woman, he's the wrong man, you are going to do things you cannot imagine you would ever do, you are going to do bad things to children, you are going to suffer in ways you never heard of, you are going to want to die.' I want to go up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it, but I don't do it. I want to live. I take them up like the male and female paper dolls and bang them together at the hips like chips of flint as if to strike sparks from them, I say 'Do what you are going to do, and I will tell about it.' "

From the movie Into The Wild

Some things just are perfect

Antradienis.
As tokia pavargus siandien kalnas namu darbu. Na bet mano netas pradejo geriau veikti tai tas yra labai kul. Ir dar vienas lb nuostabus dalykas tai yra nirrimi photography sitom nuotraukom tikrai galima naudoti du zodzius: perfect ir super professional, palauk cia buvo trys zodziai? Anyway, enjoy.

p.s. http://www.flickr.com/photos/mo0sh/

Mokykloj buvo praleistos jau trys dienos. Nedaug. Dar visi metai pries nosi.

Uzvakar miegojau dvi valandas, bet nebuvau pavargus, ne trupucio. Kita nakti nuejau miegot astunta, visa diena ziovojau. Keista? Aha. Katik paziurejau The Vampire Daries sezono premjera. Hm nieko gero, nieko originalaus, na bet jai nera kur laiko deti paziuretu galima. Rytoj bus Socratic Seminar istorijoj, nenoriu, bet siaip tiesiog stenguosi apie tai negalvoti, zn, kad bus leva, nu bet tarkim. Dbr valytis dantu ir ciuciaaa liuliaaa mik vaikeli silko pataluos...Kai tik vaikelis ciucialiula...:)

"Ta salis uz kalnu, jos senai neturiu"

"Alaska!"

"Alaska Alaska or City Alaska?"

"Alaska!"

"TWO YEARS HE WALKS THE EARTH. NO PHONE, NO POOL, NO PETS, NO CIGARETTES, ULTIMATE FREEDOM. AN EXTREMIST AN AESTHETIC VOYAGER WHOSE HOME IS THE ROAD. ESCAPED FROM ATLANTA. THOU SHALT NOT RETURN, ‘CAUSE “THE WEST IS THE BEST.” AND NOW AFTER TWO RUMBLING YEARS COMES THE FINAL AND GREATEST ADVENTURE. THE CLIMATIC BATTLE TO KILL THE FALSE BEING WITHIN AND VICTORIOUSLY CONSLUDE THE SPIRITUAL REVOLIUTION. TEN DAYS AND NIGHTS OF FREIGHT TRAINS AND HITCHIKING BRING HIM TO THE GREAT WHITE NORTH. NO LONGER TO BE POISONED BY CIVILIZATION HE FLEES, AND WALKS ALONE UPON THE LAND TO BECOME LOST IN THE WILD. "

ALEXANDER SUPERTRAPM

MAY 1992

"Everything that he's saying has to be said, everything that he's doing has to be done. Its our life."

an extremist...

an aesthetic voyager...

ULTIMATE FREEDOM.

4 dienos iki vasaros pabaigos

♥♥♥
Jau tris dienas is eiles pas mus karsta. Ziauriai karsta. Vasara rodo ragus, atrodo, kad ji dar nesiruosia niekur eiti. As mirstu, kur mano ruduo? Nemegstu Kalifornijos. Ech, bet kaip nors isgyvensiu, ne tiek dar isgyvenau.I mokykla nesinori, bet tikiuosi, kad sie mokslo metai bus daugiau zadantis. O kitos vasaros atostogos bus tobulos. As tai zinau, bet stengiuos perdaug apie tai negalvoti, nes dar ilgai laukti.Man dabar gera ismokau neliudinti saves, del nesekmiu ar levo ir nejudancio gyvenimo. Tai vat ir sugalvojau nauja moto ar kazka tokio "Life is beautiful, but shit happens", manau jis man yra labai optimalus.

xoxo.

Truputi galva skauda.

Just the ohter stupid and super boring day.

Kai as noriu sokti, niekados nesoku. Kai as noriu gerti, niekados negeriu. Kai as noriu dainuoti, niekados nedainuoju. Kai as noriu sypsotis, niekados nesisypsau. Kai as noriu piesti, niekados nepiesiu. Kai as noriu pasivaikscioti, niekados nepasivaikscioju. Kai as noriu myleti, niekados nemyliu. Kada as noriu skaityti, niekados neskaitau. Kai as noriu juoktis, niekados nesijuokiu. Kai as noriu pirkti, niekados neperku. Kai as noriu klausytis muzikos, visada klausausi.
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NeverShoutNever - First Dance
It started with your hips,
So I moved up to your lips.
To take a chance,
Ask for a dance.
Cause you're the, cutest thing on this side of the world.
We call our homes,
Yet I feel so all alone.
Half of the time,
We gotta live with what we got,
And I got nothing.
So agree to take my hand,
So we can conjour up with something rad.

If you, could, move on with your life,
Just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright,
And I want you too.
Because ever since the first dance all I thought about,
Was loving on you.

So I moved to the dance floor,
With instincts and nothing more.
I had ants in my pants,
I did the boogie dance,
And there was nothing to do but laugh.
So I made another leap,
Hoping to sweep you off your feet,
I said,
"Baby maybe we could bust this joint and see if my place is open to chill."

If you, could, move on with your life, just like you do.
Just like you shoo be do do do.
And you could make everything alright, and I want you too.
Because ever since the first dance all I thought about,
Was loving on you.

I want to have my own story, my own way...

Mmm.
Tylu.
Tuscia.
Lasas vandens.
Ji guli susirietus i rutuli, ant lovos. Jos vidus tuscias, ji to nejaucia. Jos mintys toli, labai toli nuo cia - kambario kvepancio pelesiais ir sudziuvusiom gelem. Ji galvoja apie zmogu, jai nerupi is kur jis atejo, kokia jo paskirtis cia. Jai svarbesni kiti dalykai, tik ji negali suprasti kokie. Ji pasiklydus. Ji nenori, kad zmogus ja paliktu. Ji apsivercia ant kito sono ir zvilgteli i tuscia patala. Zmogus dinges. Ji nusisypso - zmogaus niekada, nebuvo.
"Kid, you've got your whole life"
___________________________

Ooh Standing by a broken tree Her hands are all twisted, She's pointing at me, I was damned by the light comin' Over all as she Spoke with a voice that, disrupted the sky. She said, "Walk on over, yeah to this bit of shade, I will wrap you in my arms" And hold you safe, "Let me sign, let me sign."

Lyrics by Robert Pattison - Let Me Sign

Go listen to: Florence And The Machine - Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) (The Lionheart Mix)

"Ar kadanors atsigulei vakare i lova ir nuo simta penkiolikos triju minciu ir nerealiausiu ideju tiesiog negalejai uzmigti ir galvojai, kaip ryt ryte atsikelsi ir jas visas igyvendinsi? Ir ar atsikeles kita ryt supranti, kad tos simta penkiolika trys mintys, buvo tokios kvailos ir tu nepajudinsi nei vieno pirsto, kad jas igyvendintum? Tu tiesiog sugrisi i savo rutina ir nekesi/megausies ja?"
Taip, taip ir dar karta taip!
Nes as esu keistas zmogus as bijau pati saves, as net nesu tikra kas as esu ar kokia mano paskirtis sitam dideliam pasauly. Bet as nesijaudinu, stengiuosi i viska ziureti pozityviai, tik kartais pritrunka stiprybes, nes kai viskas krenta is ranku ir nera peties issiverkt... Tiesiog buna sunku, bet taip as auginuosi vis stipresni skyda. Bet ar man reikia jo? Gal as tiesiog perdaug nuo visko saugausi, gal bijau... O kartais as tiesiog noriu buti kuo nesu, tada as nemegstu saves labiausiai.

Sooner or later it will happen

Then you're sitting alone, your eyes are closed.
And I am opening the door.
But shh your eyes are still closed.
I am coming closer.
You smell my happiness.
I come closer to see your anxious eyelids.
You are still affraid of something.
Then I look down, I see your palms pressed together.
I stroke your soft hair and slightly touch the cheek.
You take a deep breath and then slightly exhale it.
Oh I feel your warmth.
I don't want you to get scared, I want you to be happy.
And I know what it takes.
The thought that it's the last time I'm seeing you makes my world go crazy.
And you. You're just sitting and waiting.
And I know where is not much time left.
Suddenly you surprise me. You open your eyes.
And there's no place to run.
Your eyes... They are stopping me.
They are beautiful ones, but I can't see the color. Too dark.
I try to find hope in your eyes. But no, no hope.
You're just sitting in the same pose as before.
I look again right into your sparkly eyes. No love.
I turn around and run.

I've just missed the rain.

Is ketvirtadienio i penktadieni ir as nekenciu HP firmos

Hallo.
Siandien nesekmiu diena.
Snd su mama ejom i ComicCon'a bet paaiskejo, kad visi bilietai jau seniausiai ispirkti ir nera jokios vilties juos gauti, o poto dar suzinojau, kad ten buvo Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewar ir Taylor Lautner. Na truputi nusiminiau, bet poto pagalvojau, kad man butu geda stoveti tarp besilydanciu ir isprotejanciai rekianciu amerikoniu paaugliu:D
Na o poto kai grizau namo atradau youtube'j toki HP kompiuteriu konkursa (placiau: http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3190/2763773971_fda3696f60.jpg). Siaip konkursas toks labai fainas. Ir as kazkaip labai uzsidegiau padaryti video. Na ir per didziausias kancias as ji padariau (nu gerai gerai netokios ir dideles tos kancios buvo as truputi perdedu) ir poto man reikejo tokia maza reklamyte uzdeti ant savo video, bet kadangi mano kompas yra daunas, tai jam kazkodel ta reklamyte nepatiko ir jis visai nenorejo jos pakrauti. Na tada as nusprendziau paskaityti taisykles tai dar paaiskejo ir tas, kad man turi but bent 18m norint ten dalyvauti. Na zodziu nlb kas siandien sekesi, bet as kazkodel neliudziu tikriausiai todel, kad as ziauriai miego noriu, nes pas mus jau 4:21ryto.

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJqnIJOJX50

Taylor Lautner, Kristen Stewart ir Robert Pattinson ComicCon'e.

badass LIFE!

ISPEJIMAS: Galyte nesivarginti ir net neskaityti sio blog'o jeigu jums yra neidomus mano gyvenimas ir kruva nekokybisku nuotrauku(:

p.s. Visos nuotraukos yra bent metu ar dvieju senumo, tad nekreipkite demesio i mano ar kieno nors kito nuostabia isvaizda ir kadangi visos nuotraukos yra is mano seno telefono jos yra ekstremaliai blogos kokybes(:

so ENJOY!

As ir Liutauras (pusbrolis). WE HAVE THE MOST BADASS TIME IN THE WHOLE WORLD! Mums yra visiskai stogai nurauti, tad is musu gali tiketis bet ko. Mes visada juokiames is nesamoniu, prisigalvojame visokiu debilisku zodziu issireiskimu ir siaip... Su tavim ir pirma metcke ir patys geriausi laikai kaime. Atskirai mes nelabai, bet kartu mes LAIMES KAULAI! ( nevisiems suprast(: )




Martynas (Liutauro brolis). Sis vaikis yra ziauriai ziauriai padukes . Bet nezmoniskai gerai soka!


PIENAS! Nekenciu pieno, bet ejimas jo pats Ladziuka yra pats nuostabiausias!


Anubis (mano suniukas). Deja negalejau veztis savo maziuko i Amerika, tad teko ji atiduoti kitiems seimininkams. Bet jis buvo pats nuostabiausias suo pasaulyje! Sutinku as ir mano mama nemokejom jo dorai isaukleti, tad turejom truputi bedu su juo. Bet jis visada liks geriausias mano kadanors turetas suo.Myliu.


Mociute. Ji yra labai nuostabi ir rupestinga. Ji kepa pacius nuostabiausius blynus ir jos darze auga patcios skaniausios braskes.


Senelis. Jis yra gan grieztas zmogus, bet jis mane labai myli, as ji taip pat. Ir sita nuotrauka yra ziauriai nurauta(:


Dredas ir Dora. Dredas yra mieliausias kutveliukas ir beto jis buvo pirmasis suo ant kurio as isbandziau isterini ir jam netgi patiko! Dora yra labai stipri ir draugiska mergaite.


Ugne (pussere). Mano kaunietka merga! Labai labai energingas zmogus! Ir ji visada man primena zodi "kaimynka"(:


Urte (na gerai jos lupskaris ir vansas). Ech su ja buvo tokie geri laikai, tiek daug geru pokalbiu ir siaip ji yra be proto nuostabi. Ir musu milijoniniai bandymai tau praverti lupa(: Ir HK!


Menas telefonu. Kai tiesiog neturedavau ka veikti...


Mildos ziauri suknele. Haha ta diena buvo labai smagi mes su Urte turejom progos is ko pasisaipyti. sry sry, bet as irgi kazkada turejau bent trumpam buti blogas zmogus.


Gabija (as). As labai labai pasikeiciau per pastaruosius metus ir negaliu pasakyti, kad i blogaja puse, bet tikrai ne taip kaip as tikejausi. Tikiuosi, kad gyvenimas si zmogu prives prie konors gero.



Gumos. Cia tokios gumos, kurios yra dedamos pries idedant breketus. Jos ten turi padaryti vietos tokiam ziedui uzdeti. Bet esme tame, kad ziauriai ziauriai nuo ju skauda!


Egles (mamos pussere) kate. Niekaip negaliu prisiminti jos vardo. Bet pamenu, kai Egle buvo savaitei ja palikus priziureti, nes ji turejo isvaziuoti i kazkokia kelione. Siaip nesu didele kaciu gerbeja bet nuotraukos pasirode mielos(:


Vans'ai. Mano pirmieji vansai. Man jie labai grazus, dar ligi siol juos turiu ir labai sekmingai nesioju.


Gitara. Mano pirmoji gitara. Ji vis dar ilsisi Lietuvoj, bet taip pat betrotiskai laukia manes. Idomus faktas: As turiu dvi gitaras, bet dar nemoku net vieno akordo...


Tai tiek. Atleiskite zmones kuriu cia nebuvo, tiesiog jusu nebuvo mano telefone.Bet as jus vis tiek labai MYLIU!